Monday, January 17, 2011

Risk



This picture hung in the hall of the hospital a couple doors down from me. Everytime I passed it, I would stop and read it.

RISK
"You cannot discover new oceans unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore."


When making the decision to have WLS (weight loss surgery), I did a lot of research. When it came down to it, for me it was all about risk. Was the risk of surgery & complications worth the life-long, life-changing benefits that it had the potential to bring?

For me, this was an overwhelming YES. Pre-surgery, I was on no medications, had no serious health problems, no sleep apnea, no diabetes, no high blood pressure. Just being completely honest, about the only thing I've had issues with was with conceiving. But I would not allow myself to become diabetic before I was 30 years old! I could not allow myself to miss out on what God has in store for me, because of my addiction to food. WLS is not a quick fix, it's not the easy way out, but it has given me a time frame that I'll call a sort of "divorce from food."

Losing sight of that shoreline is like heading into the unknown. It's a good thing! It's a little painful, and I sometimes get a little seasick ;o) But knowing that God's leading me with every sip of Crystal Light, every swallow of the calcium... the risk of of the unknown is far less scary, and only that more exciting!

2 comments:

  1. Praying for you every day....that you get healthier & happier & in a few years we get to have a cousin for Carly:) Love ya sis!

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  2. Jen,
    I so know the feeling of not being able to concieve. It took my husband and I 3 yrs to conceive. I was doing weight watchers to help me in this process. I had lost about 50 lbs when God finally gave us that chance to be parents and show him that we wanted to raise a child with him in their lives. We did all the testing to find out what was wrong. I soooo understand what the feeling of not conceiving feels like if you ever need to talk I sure am a good listner and know the emotions involved. I was still obese when I finally conceived. I am sooo glad you are going to be healthy for that step in your lives, it will make it that much more enjoyable.

    Dawn(from SD)

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